Problem/Goal: I don’t feel the love I used to feel for him and I want to break up
This will be long po as I want to explain in detail hehe
I have a boyfriend of almost 6 months and we got together dahil we were in the same friend group and bagay daw kami sabi ng friend namin. At that time I never had a boyfriend a few talking stage here and there but never really committed. Nanligaw siya sa’kin for I think 3 months and then sinagot ko siya. Honestly, the only reason na sinagot ko siya was because parang nagiging impatient siya na hindi ko pa siya sinasagot and during that time madalas niya ako tinanong kung kelan ko raw siya sasagutin so it’s like I got pressured to answer him. Meron siya kinuwento sa’kin na sabi raw ng dad niya baka nilelead-on ko lang siya tapos hindi ko siya sasagutin, at that time hindi ko masyado pinagisipan then kinuwento ko sa sister ko a couple weeks ago and she told me na parang hindi raw tama na sabihin niya sa’kin ‘yon. I told her na ok lang siguro and we moved on. Also during our ligawan phase anytime I did something wrong he would become honest and that’s not much of a problem for me, he told me that it was good and that makes our relationship healthier so I agreed. He had a girlfriend before so I thought na he knew what we should do. Meron kaming parang film show sa school and it was at a cinema during ‘yung showing he repeatedly wanted me to touch his yk and ayoko, I kept resisting and he told me na hindi rin ba ako parang sexually attracted sakanya ganito ganito and hindi ko alam sasabihin ko so hindi nalang ako nagsasalita, mind you we were only together for a month siguro and at that time 17 pa kami both, now 18 na kami. So, I wasn’t really comfortable with what we were doing. Then nung gabi na ‘yon pinagusapan namin ‘yung nangyare and that I was very uncomfortable all that sabi niya na sorry siya and that he thought na I liked it too, he said sorry alot of times and was very apologetic so I moved on. Then, mga 2 months na siguro kami this was a time na he really liked touching me and we already had our first kiss and wanted us to do more sexual things and I didn’t want it. I admit though na there were times na may heat of the moment pero we did not go all the way and it was a make out. We really loved doing that and whenever there were no classmates around us he would try but I didn’t want to. There was a point na I was so upset about it and again he apologized and I moved on.
Ngayon, asa bakasyon kami and i’ve had more time to think about ‘yung mga nangyare and what he was doing to me. Nung Monday, I was trying to break up with him because I felt pressured being with him and I just slowly lost interest in him nung week before. I wanted to end it and be done with it. But, there was something sa’kin telling me na gusto ko parin siya and maybe hindi ngayon ‘yung time kasi ewan ko HAHAHAHAHAH. He also talked to our friend nung tuesday kasi nung tuesday ng gabi kami nagkaayos, and he talked to our well-known friend. And the reason I told him I wanted to break up was because of me feeling pressured by him to always update, and that I just got tired of it. Another one is that, it’s like I would get criticized kasi tuwing gabi like after school or after our hangouts he would tell me stuff that I shouldn’t have done, should have done, said and all that made him feel bad. So naturally I would make changes in myself so that hindi na mangyari uli ‘yon. I told him that and I also vented on my sister and cousin, they told me that we should cool-off because they said it sounded like I need time away from daw so I suggested that to him and he said hindi niya raw kaya ‘yon sa I tried to think of something else but never actually did anything since nagkaayos kami nung tues night.
As of now, I still feel the same and ewan ko what I should do since baka mag-turn ‘yung mga friends namin sa’kin kasi they were his friends first before ako and they’ve know each other for a long time🥹 Any advice po would do, thankyou po!!
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