For context, I'm the older sister(19) out of four kids. I can bond with sister 2(14) and youngest brother(10), but I could NEVER bond with sister 1(15); We moved out of Brazil to Italy roughly 3 years ago, and everything is just different:since it's safer here, my mom gave my siblings the freedom of going out with friends, sometimee even past curfew. The problem here is, I think sister 1 was born evil. Ever since we moved, she went from daddy's little girl to everyone's nightmare: She gets around with MULTIPLE boys (it's always a surprise, the boy can be either 15 or 18), she started smoking the light stuff like cigarettes and now she does drugs when she manages to escape from school, and she's EXTREMELY aggressive: She has hit my mom multiple times when she was trying to explain why she can't be doing all of this, she has hit my brother, my other sister and she threw a whole mini printer in my face. Yeah, a mini printer, those that print polaroids. She holds no remorse about those things, the closest thing to it was when she blamed ME for throwing a printer at MY FACE.
And I'm going crazy because ever since my parents divorce, I barely see my dad. He's not present and filling the gap where he should be. I coach my brother, I go on his school plays, I help sister 2 with her diabetes, but that's not enough. I'm trying to help everyone but myself, but now sister 1 is driving us insane to the point we lock our doors to sleep because we fear she will get in our rooms to steal our things and wipe us out.
I will accept any guidance and from anyone that can help: mothers, ex-rebel childs, therapists.