ok so ive like never don’t one of these posts but I need help. i dont even know if this really happened or if my mind is playing games on me but either way I feel disgusting. context: this happened for I’m pretty sure a couple of years, we are both the same age, both girls, cousins, and I have no bad feelings against her what’s so ever I just need to get this off my chest and get answers bc I’m confused.
when I was younger my cousin would teach me how to kiss and stuff. she would also give me like “lip massages” with her hands and mouth to my lips idk. i remember once she told me to make a sign for my door telling nobody to come in my room. she laid me down on the ground n*ked and then laid on top of me n*ked. I don’t really re member much of what happened. I remember another time we were like showering and we were both like kissing or I wanted her to kiss me or something. and then we played this game where I laid down on this bed and I started kissing this broom stick or something lmao and she would like say “no kiss me” and then she would kiss me. then we got caught by our moms(our moms are sisters) and they told us not to do that.
im not sure if this counts and sorry if that didn’t make sense. I only remember fragments and I dont even know if it happened. I’ve never told anyone this either. and idk if the reason why I don’t remember much is bc I’ve been so ashamed of it happening and I’ve felt so gross for even enjoying what she did to me but like my brain just blocked it out or if my brain just created memories over the years. but I feel like it’s too specific for my brain to just create these kinds of memories yk?