Please help me fix my life
I've got no friends. When I work my ass off to make a friend i instantly do soething stupid to push them away. It's almost on purpose, but not. Like obviously I don't want to push them away.. but I feel paranoid, feel they're going to hurt me etc so I have a public meltdown and get them to hate me, then I feel almost relieved because I proved to msyelf that they didn't really want to be my friend.