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I’ve never been one to be super crazy about kinks. Usually pretty vanilla, and even when I wasn’t, they didn’t really do much for me.
But then one night it changed. And even then it was really only with people I was personally attracted to, you know? I don’t care for men so when men call me good boy it does nothing for me.
But recently, a close friend of about a year and a half has started calling me a good boy. And it turns me on like crazy. And I don’t know how to feel about it. I mean I know I really like it. But I feel bad. Sometimes I’ll go out of my way to act more submissive toward her and kiss her ass (figuratively of course) so that she’d call me a good boy. And sometimes it works.
But it’s not like she’s a large flirt. Maybe to other people but not with me, I guess it’s a barrier she doesn’t want to cross. Which is fine. But I know that isn’t why she’s saying it to me. I think it’s because I pretend to get mad whenever she says it, so I guess she finds my reaction funny. Like rage baiting in a way. And I also know this and I react angry so that she’ll keep doing this.
Is this bad? Is this like extortion? Idek. It feels really wrong. I don’t think I should go up to her and be like “I love it when you call me a good boy it turns me on!!” But part of me feels like I shouldn’t keep doing this. Or maybe it’s really not that bad since it’s only affecting me? It’s not like I ever make her say it or anything. I don’t know. Is this wrong?