I feel stuck at my job (government, still SG 15, gross around 42k). It’s a non-lawyer position, but I’m doing lawyer's work. I handle public/corporate law, and I do have authority for private practice, pero wala talaga akong clients. I haven’t appeared in court yet either, except for my notarial commission.
I know how I work—I take things seriously and I really go the extra mile. Some of my friends and relatives are recent bar passers, and sabak na agad sila sa litigation. It’s not that I’m envious… more like nasasayangan ako sa potential ko. Every time they share (sa chat lang naman) that they won a case (of course proud lang naman sila), I can’t help but think, kaya ko rin sana yon.
It’s not even about winning, honestly. It’s more about doing something that feels worth your while. But here I am—parang hamster, paikot-ikot lang, same cycles, ganon. And the thing is, I’m actually loaded with work, so I often wonder if my gov't post is still worth it.
I really don’t know where I belong right now. Is there someone here who is similarly situated? Yung alam mong, you have the potential, but hindi nagagamit? Like you're wasting away your life... how did you deal. Takot din akong mag private agad kasi what if I'm not as good as I thought hahaha.