i’m lowky think i’m depressed what should i do?
This is a burner account first of all don’t want to be found out. Anyway so I, 16f have kinda felt empty since covid hit. I’ve been able to hide it pretty well. Ive been pretending that everythin’s fine when it’s really not. it’s not constant but for the majority of that time. Even during the best times I don’t feel as happy as others and happiness fades quickly. also i’ve gone to in addition certian periods of more intense sadness, where it’s harder to manage my lack of motivation, suicidal thoughts, lack of energy, lack of goals, difficulty falling asleep amongst other things. My grades have remained pretty decent but it takes everything out of me. I’ve learned to function but i don’t do much than the basics and don’t really interact with others outside of school. And being alone so much as i am i don’t really have any hobbies i use scroll or watch anime and sometimes just cry to mysel a lot. And keep having to talk myself out of killing myself. i dont really remember a time i was truly completly happy. also i feel like theirs no one to share this with cause i don’t want to end up in the psych war. also i drink so much coffee just to make it through the day. sorry for how convoluted this is. truly what should i do in this situation?