u/Antique-Peach-4142

Hi! I was in the science curriculum at school, but due to mental health issues I had to drop out from that world and went into social sciences. The thing is that I still love science, especially biology and chemistry but I forgot so much that it's such a shame.

My girlfriend is a biotechnologist, she's very passionate about it and I want to be able to listen to her without getting lost so much. Also I know she would love to speak about her work with me but really can't due to my lack of knowledge.

She has awakened my scientific curiosity again, which I'm really glad about but I can't learn science if it's not at home as I'm still studying and well, it's more about feeling cultured and learning, not at a professional level.

If anyone has some recommendations on YouTube channels, or books or free courses, I would be delighted :)

I, 24F, have been going out with my girlfriend, 23F, for about 3 months after being good friends for a while.

She's a very career and academic driven person, science is her passion and she is VERY good at it. She's finishing her Bachelor's and working on her Final Bachelor's Project, which is is going amazingly well. She got amazing recommendation letters and all that.

Due to the stress she's experiencing, we took a step back on our relationship, we are fine but not good, we almost don't meet up, it's not quality time either but I don't want to take her time up from this crucial time of her life. We don't even have sex since 2 months because I won't sleep at her house because of her busy schedule.

However, she still meets her friends sometimes for longer times than with me and goes to unexpected plans, I feel like she takes me for granted as I'm a bit of a people pleaser.

On Friday I got admitted into the hospital due to, at the time unknown, kidney stone. She's been asking me and very worried, but yesterday she was gonna visit me in the afternoon as in the morning she had plans with science people she works with. However, a few hours before she told me that a friend of hers would let her get into a music festival for free (with some groups we both love), so she chose to go instead of visiting me (she said she felt a bit guilty but I reassured her, as a people pleaser, that I would still be in the hospital while the concert won't be another day, which is true but I still felt a bit disappointed).

Now is Sunday morning, and she hasn't given any life signals. It's almost midday and I told her that she couldn't come in the afternoon as a my childhood friend who's in a delicate position right now was gonna visit me and I wanted some alone time to speak with her.

Mind you she has means to come to the hospital, her own car and public transportation direct from her house to here. She's awake because her roommate is my best friend and he told me.

Lately I've been thinking about if this relationship is worth it. I'm the only one conceding on things, making sacrifices...

I was waiting for this stressful time to pass but I don't know if it's worth it anymore.

Do you think I'm being exaggerated and that I should be more lenient? I spoke with her many times about not feeling a priority. I want to stop feeling bad and concentrate in my own life too, as to not suffer from heartcache so much.

Is this even worth it?