I started to see someone. I am pansexual, but this is my first time with a woman. Now, I experience a lesbian speed which is fast, I can say we just met a week ago!!
It was good to spend a lot of time together, almost every day. We have so much in common. However, I started to feel pressured by her to be more touchy. Plus, I started to feel annoyed being with her all the time. Today I told her not to take it personally, but I want to go home and be alone :(. She didn't say anything bad in return; she said take a good rest, and it was sweet. But I think it is more than being tired, it is fundamental. Maybe because we started so fast, maybe I am hesitant, and seeing her comfortable makes me annoyed. Maybe I don't want to lose my personal boundaries. I don't know, I am confused with myself. I wonder why I am so annoyed by her desire to touch. I genuinely liked her. Tomorrow she has an important exam, therefore I am planning to have a more serious conversation after her exam in order to not to affect her performance.
I had some dates with women before, but never a serious one. And I have been single for more than a year now. I really feel I am an uneasy partner. She should convince me to be one or I probably want to keep my distance. Relationships are hard for me. I wanna know why. What do you think? Any advice?
(btw we are university students and we live on the same campus, that's why we can always see each other)
note 1: I think she uses si as a function