I wanna start off by saying I did decide to get help but I'm not having a consult until May 19th.
About 8 months ago I broke up with my girlfriend, things were not going well for the past year and nothing changed. This made me incredibly insecure and unhappy about the relationship and myself. We both knew this was the right decision. The months after were extremely hard for me, having a very hard time building myself back up from the relationship that tore me down (no disrespect to her).
I has been 8 months like I said, and it's really bad. Nothing changed, i have never been more insecure of myself, I'm jealous of here moving on (even though I have no clue what she's doing), and I'm having a very hard time getting validation from myself since i'm not getting the idea that I'm worth it from someone else anymore.
There are some other things about me / conditions that are making me very insecure apart from the break up that I won't go into detail of.
I really just needed to write my feelings down and maybe talk to other people, that's when this subreddit showed up. I'm so drained of having to deal with myself and these feelings all the time. It feels like my brain is doing everything in it's power to make my life awful.