Suggestions
Hello,
I'm looking for suggestions on how to move forward. Me (31F) have been with my husband (35M) for 14 years. When my daughter was less than a year, (she's now 10) my husband had left porn up on his laptop. This is when I found out he's into 18 year old girls. Over the years I've tried everything to forget, but he stares at restaurants, when he's scrolling through fb, and tiktok.
I've spoke to him about it and received every excuse, the main one being he's not into them because they are young, he just likes thin girls. A little background, I am a thin girl, who appears younger than my age, but knowing this information over the years has left me a shell of myself. I LOVE food, but have grown to see it as a bad thing. I look at myself in mirrors and am afraid to gain a pound. It's also left me very unattracted to him because he had let himself go over the years and gained a lot of weight himself. So all I can picture is a old large man, pleasuring himself to what I would consider to young.
Everything feels wrong. I know I've let this go on to long, from the outside we are a family most would be jealous of, but on the inside, it's getting harder to live with myself. This is my largest secret.
TL;DR MY HUSBAND LIKES YOUNG GIRLS