u/AngleNo4560

27F was diagnosed at 23. I’ve read some posts on here alluding to the importance of exercise. I happened to be a psycho teenager that tried CrossFit at 15 out of boredom, quickly hooked and have been intensely active ever since. With various physical activities through the years.

All that to say, when I read “exercise is important” I’m thinking, yeah.. In what context is it not? But I’ve never really known what my functioning looks like without routine activity. Before straight exercise, always a sport of some kind.

In the past 4-5 months, I’ve been totally depleted by work related stress. And I quit exercising. Not by choice, truly think I was becoming depressed. Eventually I had to quit that job. I have never felt so disorganized, incapable of executing a plan, frankly half brain dead… as I have these past several months of little to no exercise.

I just want to know if it feels this life or death for others? Medication has changed my life. But if I’m not exercising, it’s beyond ineffective. Dare I say it then teeters on the side of harm. It sounds a little ridiculous, but honestly I don’t think I’ve stopped moving long enough to feel the poison of stillness.

\*side note: I have \~never\~ been athletically gifted. I’ve worked myself into physical condition beyond what I ever thought possible for myself, but I suck ASS at team sports\*