Hi, the worst day of my life happened about three weeks ago when I found out at 21+3 scan that there was no heart beat anymore. This was our first pregnancy and we had tried 1.5 years before the positive pregnancy test thanks to ovulation induction round 3. I have lean pcos so I don't normally ovulate naturally.
I feel betrayed by the universe and it is hard to cope. I don't cry as much as in the first couple weeks but still feel unimaginable pain in my heart. I don't get excited anymore and I don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to think about future plans as they don't bring joy to me.
The only thing that could help me feel better is if I could one day get my own child. But with PCOS it is hard to hope that one day we will succeed. I'm 28 years old and know we still have time to try but it still feels impossible. And if we don't succeed one day, I don't know how I can live without a child.