I finnaly know who I' am.
So as the title says, I decided that nonbinary label does not really fit me so now I'm a trans demi-boy. I was figuring out my identity for the past 5 years and tried so many labels and it just didn't work. I have dysphoria about every single feminine part of my body and I like being called brother, son or even a boy. I was exploring my identity forever and everybody that messaged me in dm-s said that my criteria better suits for a trans boy. I think I decided I was nonbinary was bc I liked some feminine things like skirts, necklaces, bracelets and after all my style is really weird like sometimes i like feminine clothing and sometimes I like really masculine clothing. I also like they/ them pronouns (I'm using now They/it/he). With the help of new friend I met 26 day ago on Reddit that is now my best friend I ever had and is really big mental support, she told me that clothing, things I like and pronouns do not define gender. it matters how I feel inside. and I feel like a boy. so it makes all sense now. I will still like things I like, but that will never define mine, or anyones gender, ever. I am not scared anymore. I am gonna be real me now.