u/Ancient_Village_2759

i went no contact on a narc (was close to him for atleast a year) in early February, and last weekend (April mid-late). It was shocking and painful, however i held back from reaching out to him, blocked him on everything. The brain fog left me in about a week, and then i was constanlty sad, felt betrayed, questioned why i didnt leave earlier, and whether I am the narc. Then i had many days of loneliess, and neutral feeelings mixed with sadness, and how i betrayed myself, by associating him. Last weekend I suddenly felt happiness again for a few seconds. It was so weird. Is this happening for real? After that I saw the narc, at a coffee shop (first time seeing him this close after the NC), and my heart beat raised. but something changed after seeing him for the first time. I think I finally saw him for what he is, and not some mysterious person who had power over me, and now i think of him less and also feel more happier. Anyone gone through this and can relate?