Pics of our 5 year anniversary dinner from last night but I think I’m finally giving up. This weekend, I made a few jokes about how we should be engaged (it’s been a topic we’ve had numerous arguments over) he flipped out on me broke up with me halfway through the night out with our friends. I spent the rest of the night crying at the casino/club until I finally got back to our room. The next morning he doubled down saying I was pathetic and desperate and that my feelings about being engaged are ones I need to work through alone and aren’t his problem.
This isn’t new behavior, I’ve been selling myself a lie that he will improve but I can’t keep living like this. I deserve better, I deserve someone who shows up for me emotionally, who couldn’t fathom making me cry so much that I popped a blood vessel in my eye, then would leave me in the room alone to go back out and gamble. I have a U-Haul booked to move out, 2 therapy sessions for this week on the calendar and I booked a flight with some friends to Portugal. Wish me luck bc I know it’s going to be a bumpy ride to getting over someone you love this much.