Got cheated on and trying to move on
We were close friends since childhood being together in everything and each other's personal space. We both had some parental issues and we supported and took care of each other's ups and lows eventually as we grew up together we started acting like a couple and had the vulnerability and intimacy between us.
By the time we were completing our schooling we both confronted each other and got into a relationship that I was so attached to her and deeply in love with her as I wanted her to be always with me taking good care of her and happily together.
Our relationship felt like something forever that I was ready for anything from changing myself if I had any issues to taking good care of her and to become a better person for ourselves planning a future together.
We both joined different colleges and decided to support each other's passion and used to meet on weekends and sometimes in weekdays.
After a couple of months into different colleges she started to ignore and avoid my texts and calls and she started acting so rudely from then for literally no reason like talking with the intention of disrespecting me and then she started blaming me for reacting on her actions of treating me so bad. This continues for some day's and then one day she said that she doesn't want to be in a relationship with me. So I had no idea on why is she taking that decision. And I wanted to communicate and sort things between us no matter whatever it is and I tried to have a convo with her but she completely avoided and said that " we can be as friends but don't expect a relationship from me" so I was like couldn't understand what's going on and tried to communicate with her but she blocked me everywhere and avoided me completely.
After few days of no contact I went to her place to meet as I was missing her regardless of her actions but she never spoke a single word as she told about our relationship to her family members but as if I'm the only one who loves her and she lied a lot to her family members which I didn't know at that time and I spoke with her parents and sister I was accountable and honest with them about everything as I loved her so much. Her family members believing her lies about us adviced me that it won't work out and not to ever meet again . Throughout that time she didn't spoke a single word she just stayed quiet manipulating their parents and me .
After so much of disrespects and confusion only thing I expected was an closure from her and somehow contacted her through a call and All she said was that she has no reasons to leave me and mentioned that there was not any mistakes of mine but she just can't be with me as she felt that it won't work out.
Then we both went completely no contact and I was suffering so bad internally each and every single day losing my mental health and physical health overthinking a lot and trying to manage my academics at the same time felt so tired all the time handling everything and still working on my passion.
4 months later I met her friend in a mall while talking to her she told me that my ex had got into an another relationship with a senior in her college after a week of our breakup and she got feelings on that guy when we were in relationship and because of that she started to ignore and avoid me and completely dumped me without any proper closure or communication leaving me confused and heartbroken. After knowing this I was shattered and self sabotaged myself for a month isolating myself alone and crying all day on the betrayal which I never expected as she was the person whom I trusted the most did this cheap to me .
And now going through by processing everything and realising that I've got played by the person whom I trusted and loved genuinely feels disgusted tbh.
Slowly recovering fixing myself prioritising myself and my peace over anything. Not completely moved on yet but far from being obsessed with her Knowing what she did to me makes me feel disgust. Yeah obviously the memories hits and it hurts sometimes but eventually I can understand the reality too.
Hoping to be better.