u/Ancient_Customer_608

i am not able to register. when i click on pre enrollment or register they direct me to log in. i am non EU(indian) so i can't use spid and all. what do i do? and when i click on register they also show "page no longer active" or smth like that. i have to click on register option which is on the top corner for less than 3 sec, and if i fail to click on it in 3 sec they direct me to log in page. i am attaching pictures. also i have tried using chrome, edge, fire fox and incognito, still the same.

i tried clicking on every option here except the contacts ofc, it was still the same

I’m 18F, a dropper, and I genuinely need some advice because I feel completely stuck between two choices that both scare me in different ways. My first attempt was in 2025, and honestly, we all know how that year went for most students. After that, I decided to take a drop. My parents supported me fully. They never forced me into neet, I chose it. At the start of my drop year, I was genuinely motivated and confident. I thought this was going to be my comeback year. But after a few weeks, everything slowly started draining me mentally, and I lost consistency completely. I barely studied properly for months and only started getting serious again around december.

Even after trying, physics and physical chrmistry always felt difficult for me. I understand concepts while studying, but the moment I sit down to solve questions, my mind just freezes. And honestly people who haven’t experienced a drop year don’t really understand how mentally exhausting and isolating it becomes. Everyone thinks “You had an entire year how could you not study?” but they don’t see what it does to you mentally. This year changed me a lot. I slowly stopped hanging out with my friends and isolated myself from almost everyone. On top of this, I also went through a breakup from a 3 year relationship. Maybe 3 years doesn’t sound that long to some people, but that person was my FIRST everything, so it affected me more than I expected. We also had family and financial issues going on at home during this time, and everything together became too overwhelming. I had isolated myself so much that I literally stepped outside after 3 months only to go give the exam. That’s how disconnected I became from life outside preparation. And even then after calculating my marks, I’m scoring around 310. I know that’s nowhere near enough for a government MBBS seat, and accepting that hurts because deep down I really do want to become a doctor not because of family pressure or smth I genuinely want this.

The hardest part in all of this is honestly my parents. On the way back home after the exam I cried so many times telling my dad that I don’t want another drop year but I also don’t want to do something else. And the entire time he stayed calm. There wasn’t even a hint of anger, disappointment or pressure on his face. He just kept consoling me and said “Whatever you decide, we’ll figure it out together.” That honestly broke me even more because he has neverpressured me not even once, not last year and not now.

Now we’ve started thinking about MBBS abroad, maybe georgia. But we’re a middle-class family, and we already have debt. My dad said he could somehow save around 20–22k from his salary every month for my annual fee and that we could figure out smth. He suggested we take an education loan but I denied because the guilt of that decision is eating me alive. I keep thinking about how they’re already struggling financially and if I choose this path their burden will only increase because living abroad obviously comes with extra monthly expenses too and the cost that people usually tell yoy.

What hurts even more is that my parents had borrowed money from a few relatives beforr and those relatives constantly taunt them about repayment (my parents are paying back slow since there's debt of orher people too). They’re honestly the kind of people who will absolutely say things like, “You have money to send your daughter abroad but not enough to return our money?” Technically they have a right to complain because money is involved, but it still hurts imagining my parents having to hear all of that because of me.

At the same time, taking another drop scares me just as much. I know I wasted a huge part of my first drop year, and I also know that if I take another one, I’ll be much more disciplined because now I understand exactly where I went wrong. BUT IT WILL STILL BE DRAINING. My dad even suggested last year (drop year after neet 2025) to take admission in some course to have smrh stable on going righr? but like the dumb bitch I am, I said no it would be difficult to manage both again (2025 I gave boards too so-)

And honestly, if I do take another drop I’ll probably keep it private this time. I’ve realized that the more people know about your preparation and your drop year the more suffocating the pressure becomes. And my parents just keep on telling people about it and I am the kinda person who thinks the more people know easily it will get jinxed. People constantly ask questions, keep expectations from you and somehow it starts feeling like your entire worth depends on one exam. I’d rather tell people I’m doing some random course somewhere while quietly preparing in reality.

But even then I’m terrified. I’m scared of another year of isolation, another year of feeling mentally drained, and another year of fighting physics and chemistry while constantly wondering if I’m wasting time again. And the worst fear is that even after sacrificing another year, there’s still no guarantee that I’ll make it.

That’s why I feel trapped between two painful choices. If I choose another drop, I’ll constantly wonder whether I wasted another year of my life chasing something uncertain. But if I choose MBBS abroad I know I’ll constantly carry the guilt of watching my parents spend so much money despite everything they’ve already gone through financially. Either way guilt follows me. I know both options are difficult in different ways and I’ve been overthinking all of this ever since the exam ended. Right now every cell of my body is fighting each other constantly for not being able to choose. I just want genuine advice from people who can think practically and emotionally about this situation because I genuinely don’t know what the right decision is anymore.

I AM SO SORRY FOR TYPING THIE MUCH. But thank you so much for reading.

need advice

pre enrollment issue (medicine)