Post awakening experience and meditation question.
A real question for those that have gone through an awakening experience and who also meditate. I had my experience 6 months ago and had never meditated before this. During my awakening I felt like I had died. No more thoughts and truly thought I had passed away...and then the ultimate moments of truths. I won't go into that but my question stems from this. That moment of death was shocking and extremely scary. Even though I saw what was on the other side and it's amazing...I can't get past the death feeling. When I get deep into a meditation session I get right to the same edge of death feeling and I stop the meditation right there as the same fears of dying come back. Has anyone else had these feelings and for those that push past this uncomfortable and scary part of the meditation...what's on the other side and how did you get past the loss of self/ego/death part? Thanks for any advice.