u/AncientCricket001

To whoever reads this,

Please help me. Words of encouragement, tips and direction.

I had a child with someone who may have personality issues. We separated due to his pathological lying, narrative control and becoming violent (yelling, punching walls)

I know alienationnn is a provocative term but I genuinely believe this is happening. Recently, they blocked all communication. I tried to pick up my son and nothing. No one came out, no answer from phone. This lasted for 3 months. I put in a motion to enforce and suddenly his phone started working when the Sherriff served him. BTW, this is legal in my state. Any parent could just pick up their child and refuse to return them to the other parent. I documented EVERYTHING. They told my son I didn’t love him, abandoned him and the way he started talking to me was like reading off a script. The judge yelled at him in court reading his messages “You suck all the intelligent oxygen out of everywhere you go” “Oh, are you going to be a real Mom?” He ordered to resume our parenting schedule. When the day comes his step-son (who previously poked a whole in my tire at a pick up exchange, and told me ”their dogs were going to scratch my car” came driving up the road, drove off of it and parked in front of my car. He came out and started video recording me, while harassing (mocking, waving, thumbs up), and MY SON came out to do the same. When I say this broke my heart, I don’t have words. THEN the police arrived because his wife called “A suspicious person is recording my minor”

I carry my court file with me wherever I go. it has the court order, all his screenshots, police reports. After showing the police, they flipped their script. It took a lot of reassurance for my son that I didn’t abandoned him. My mom died recently (1.5 years ago) and I live in my state ALONE. They have isolated me with rumors, smear campaigns and baiting. I can’t even react to their abuse or it will be used against me.

I‘m scared. I’m scared they will try to bait me and end up harming me. They are the type of people to cut someone off while driving, then claim “Rear Ended Insurance”. I don’t take a damn step on their lawn during pick ups because I genuinely believe they will shoot me.

I’ve been trying my best to try new routines and supplements while waiting for my next doctor’s appointment. I can’t tell if I’m gaslighting myself because I’m desperate or I’m making some progress? I still get these reactions:

-Throat clearing

-Sniffing

-Abruptly ending conversation

This is where I’m going crazy though! Recently the guy in front of me at McDonalds offered to pay for my lunch after we talked for a bit. Parents talked to me at my son’s sporting event. A coworker invited me to have lunch with everyone. Am I making progress or are people just tolerating me? When I press on my tonsils, I still have a putrid liquid that I can smell, just not all the time. Sometimes I can really smell it, others I can’t smell anything at all.

Help.