most humilating misgendering experience I ever had
might be bc I am already feeling like absolute crap bc my shit therapist is refusing to send out the indication letter to the urologist because of my fucking personality disorder, though I explained many times I am sure and I wanted this for my entire life but we have cis person can't listen to trans man syndrome and now she added on two appointments in june and is very aware I am at risk of hurting myself apparently because she asked if I will be even there next appointment and she does this crap anyways as if she isn't causing the risk herself lmfao
To the actual thing, this morning I waited for my bird's food and toy to arrive, it did and the package delivery guy came up and gave it to me, and then asked if my legal name is my husband and if I will be taking it bc he isn't there, I had to tell him that legal name is actually me. I guess there are worse misgendering moments but as a aromantic trans man this is the most humilating thing, I have a fucking beard, what screams wife to you, I am genuinely so tired of the humilation ritual that is that fucking body, nothing will ever get better and I am tired of hearing it, for things to get better you need luck and I am having none of it, pre T and pre top surgery is the most miserable experience and everyone irl is just watching me slowly go insane over the lack of gender affiming care I desperately need or ignoring my pain