I’m 20 years old and I just transferred to a new university… and I really feel like I’m making real friends for the first time in my life. They’re wildly fun and cool and intelligent and SO funny and I am so happy when I hang out with them. I’ve been lonely for most of my life and I’m still kind of adjusting to this, but it’s really an awesome feeling. I don’t even know how to verbalize it. I’m so genuinely comfortable around them. And the best part of it for me is how much *they* seek *me* out — always texting and actively asking to hang out.
I’ve always been so eager (AKA desperate) to have friends that I was never really in a position where I could sort of take them liking me for granted — as in, treat hanging out as a normal and easy and frequent thing. I’m usually so scared that things will just fizzle out that I get nervous and treat every interaction like it has insanely high stakes. It just feels different this time.
Anyway. Just wanted to share that somewhere because it’s bringing me a lot of happiness, especially in what otherwise is a very bad time in my life. I love my friends very much and I finally understand how good this feeling is.
Here’s hoping we stay friends for a while. :)