u/Ambitious_Award_3704

How's LIFE lately?

Hello yall. I hope you are doing okay and life is treating you well lately.

Let me share a bit lang muna before the actual purpose of this message. Sharing is caring parin naman.

So, I had this 3 yrs relationship na kakabreak up lang namin last January. And umamin lang ako nung nagkahiwalay na kami. But I made sure na hindi sya nahawaan and hindi naman talaga (sya din naman ang nagsabi non) So thank God.

I know it's a red flag of me na hindi nagsabi because I was really afraid of the outcome and alam ko na kaagad ang mangyayari. So I kept it a secret until the right timing. So now, when I tried na makipagbalikan. He said that he wanted to have sex with me again nalang kase I am so good daw in bed pero no attachment involved na. Did this happen to yall too? Or do you think because of my status kaya nagkaroon na ng lamat na ayaw na bumalik sakin? I feel like kung di ko sinabi magkakabalikan kami eh. But of course I don't want us to live in lies since I have loved him so much tho hanggang ngayon naman kaya this is for the best. And dont get me wrong. I have never slept with anyone else within that 3 yrs relationship. Sya lang talaga. I don't have anybody right now too.

Nakuha ko to from being a callboy pre and post pandemic era. Not because I was playing too much. I promise you. Hindi po ako ganong klaseng tao. This was my carelessness being a callboy pre and post pandemic era since I was young that time (25 yrs old) and I dont know what prep is but I am aware what HIV is and how do you get it. This happened just to support my family and siblings kase nag aaral sila and nagkaroon ng online class then walang wala talaga kami non ultimo internet and phones so I did what I did. Kulang na kukang ang sahod ko as a data analyst, ilan kami sa bahay. Wala din namang naitulong yung asawa ng nanay ko na gunggong kase bukod sa batugan. Adik pa tapos lulong sa sugal. Tapos nag wawala kapag nakainom. Pero wala na sya dito ngayon sa lugar namin, hindi ko na sya pina babalik. Hindi na pwede.

And luckily the outcome naman kahit papano ay maayos. Nakapagtapos na yung dalawang lalake ng college and they are now applying for a job. May dalawa pa pero kaya na yon. So that's how I got it.

Going back. After the break up. I am still isolating myself. Healing alone. Then may realization talaga na, damn, I am 30 na pala. I look very healthy tho. I look young also. Not to drag but that's what I always got whenever they looked at me kesyo sa tindahan man yan or sa pag momove it or joyride or katrabaho tinatanong ako ng age ko then when I tell them I just turned 30 then nasa shocked sila kase I look so young and healthy, which is very pleasing to ears. Pero sa kabila non. Even you take care of yourself too much. Maiisip mo rin talaga na sana hindi ka dapuan ng ibang sakit no? Aside from being POS.

Genuine question lang. how is life lately? Can you share your takeaways being PLHIV for let say almost 10 yrs 5 or Yrs ganyan or for example 30 yrs 12-15 yrs na kayong PLHIV ganyan. Like ano ng nangyayari sa inyo? Ano ano mga nangyari sa inyo? May mga ibang sakit na ba kayo? Like aside from being plhiv nadapuan ba kayo ibang sakit? TB pneumonia. Cancer ganyan. Which is I hope not.

Or let say. For being a traveller. Nakakalabas ba kayo bansa ng wala kayong problema even dalhin nyo yung bote hindi ba kayo hinaharang? May ipinapakita ba kayong notes from your doctors. Hindi ba kayo kiniquestion.

Or let say, about sa work. For example. 30 na kayo or older or younger. (Ako kase 30 na e) tinatanggap pa ba kayo sa work. Or halimbawa nakapag start na kayo magwork lets say sa accounting field or BPO field, maayos naman ba kayong nakakapag work? Wala bang effect yung pag inom nyo ng gamot like nagiging groggy kayo after a while, mga ganyang bagay.. And then, wala naman bang discrimination sa hiring process.

Kase I had to resigned from my recent job because I wanna explore other job opportunity outside. Syempre 30 na ako. And I feel like baka magkaroon ako ng problem sa paghahanap ng work because of my age and my status. So kinda scary. But I am on it. I am ready for everything and anything. Give it to me Haha😄.

Or let say, ayun nga. Aside from being PLHIV. Nagkaroon or dinapuan na ba kayo other diseases? Like Colon Cancer. IBS/IBD. Kinconstipate ba kayo madalas? Lumalaki ba tyan nyo. Bloated ba kayo lagi. Nagkaroon ba kayo ng problema sa balat mga ganyan. Nangitim ba kayo. Mukha ba kayong stress. Mga ganyang bagay.

And for those na nag gigym. Lumalaki ba katawan nyo like a normal person na working out, with or without taking any supplements?

Or for example. Gusto nyo magpaputi. Nag gugluta ba kayo without compromising your health? Nagpapa IV gluta drip ba kayo. Yung mga ganitong bagay. Like adaptable naman ba and advisable ba to?

I am doing fine actually, pero part ba na mahirap magpaliit na ng tyan or na ko-constipate ka if you are PLHIV because of medication? Kase for example from 83kg I am now 76kg and my target actually is 70kg talaga. Even I know its impossible kase the drug(medication) is also the cause of gaining weight tinatry ko parin. Which is everyday nag ka cardio ako and ab work out which is effective naman I guess. Kase syempre, I really wanna look good too. I wanna see it in my skin and body. Then halimbawa nagtry ako mag gym for almost a month. Then napapansin ko. After magbuhat magiging visible naman yung muscles but after a while mawawala na. So parang useless kaya I just stick with cardio but still planning to go back in weight lifting.

Eh lactose intolerant din ako kaya hindi ako nag wiwhey protein eh. Tbh as a PLHIV, I dont have any viruses in my body kase whenever I do refill, nag aabiso sila na, "kukuhaan ka namin dugo ha for your Viral load and some other Std's" and good thing kase I am negative talaga from STI's and STD's. Only positive lang sa HIV which is I am really proud of. Honestly sobrang proud ako dito. Wala akong herpes too.

I am PLHIV for almost 5yrs now, lets say. Mag 5yrs na sa Oct 21,2026.

So yun lang ang question ko. How's life lately? Anong napapansin ninyong pagbabago sa katawan ninyo from being PLHIV? 😄😄. May nagbago ba or are you living normally lang talaga. Like normal naman talaga tayong lahat but since we have this shi* then of course may drastic change sa health and sa buhay so naapektuhan ba kayo everyday? Yun lang. aside from out mental state.

it s a genuine question.

But at the end of the day. I wish every PLHIV to live longer at lahat pumaldo sa buhay.

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u/Ambitious_Award_3704 — 5 hours ago

Hey yall. How are you guys? I hope you are doing fine.

Paano ba.

I just turned 30 nitong March 1 lang. I have a good paying job. But still not enough to support my family (bread winner) e. Although napagtapos ko na tong dalawa kong kapatid na lalake Tapos narin sila sa reqs yey✨☺️ . Adullt na eh so need nila reqs for theirlives diba. I hope sooner makapaghanap na sila work din no? I mean, hindi ko sila pinipressure mag work pero alam naman nila ang buhay. And sila naman ang naginsist na gusto narin nila so hopefully makahanap na nga ng work para sila naman sa bahay. Batugan kase tatay nila eh. Walang silbi. Pabigat at palamunin. Tinolerate naman ni mama mga bagay bagay. Mahal mahalan e. Hinayaan nya yung asawa nyang maging batugan sugarol at adik. Ayan napasa samin ng dalawa kong kapatid yung obligasyon. May senior high pa na pinapaaral and meron naman grade 4 (babae 9yrs old). Anyway, wala yung asawa nya dito sa bahay. Nasa bicol. Dapat lang.

Balik tayo. Am I depress? Or may anxiety na ba? Para akong nawawala sa wisyo at sa landas lately. I dont know. I had my break up with my 3 yrs relationship. Na feel ko isa yun sa dahilan kung bakit nawala ako sa right path at nawala yung consciousness ko sa mga bagay bagay. Ganon pala yun. Nakakabaliw. But I am trying to contain everything from here and then. Dagdag mo pa yung pagod sa buhay, sa bahay at walang humpay na pagiging breadwinner. Nagkakaroon din ako madalas ng "hypnagogic hallucinations" lalo bago matulog yan.

Maayos naman ang buhay (SANA). Kaso nabaon din sa utang para lang may pangsustento sa. Bahay. 3 CC. Then PL. hays. Nobody knows it just me. Although nagsishare ako paunti unti sa bahay pero syempre mga walang pakielam.

I am currently isolating myself from everyone. From college bestfriends/family. Workmates na dapat nag a RTO ako pero hindi ko ginagawa kase ayoko magpakita gusto ko lang magkulong at all. Magchatchat sila diko nirereplayan. Nakiki haha lang ako pag nagpapatawa sa gc. Nakamute silang lahat sakin. Mag aaya ng inuman di ako nakikipaginuman. Laging kong sinasabi na next tile nalang.. I am 3 months sober now btw. Yey. ☺️✨ gusto ko malayo sa lahat muna sana. Kung may priveledge lang na ganon eh no.

Then recently I feel like matiterminate ako sa work. I am a CSR handling insurance. Ganito kase nangyari. Feel free to judge me. I know it's my fault and it's my impulsive thought so it's fine.

May tumawag na matanda (cant read and write properly) so ang kwneto nya nag transfer sya ng pera sa savings account nya last July 2025 pero walang pumasok. Ng tinanong ko bakit ngayon lang sya tumawag at bakit sa (account) na hinahandle ko. Ang sabi nya, sabi daw ng general manager ay kontakin kami. Syempre to look if meron sya insurance nag ask ng info nya and wala ako nakita. He is 61 yrs old btw. Pagpapakilala nya which is I belive him kase based on the way he speaks hindi sya taga america napadpad lang kumbaga may accent, ibang lahi. Ako naman ni grabed ko na yung opportunity. I offered myself as his personal assistant para sana makawala na muna pansamantala sa pagiging CSR kase sabi nya babayaran naman nya ako once na nagtugma yung mga bagay bagay.

Was planning to resign narin pero nahuli eh. Hindi no ginusto yun. Pero intention ko na gawin talaga yun kase ayun nga. "Sayang" and yung "what ifs" mga ganyan.

And ang malala lang, baka matag na fraud kase baka isipin eh mang i scam ako. Iiscamin ko yung tao kase naguusap kami sa personal emails namin. My point is kaya ko ginawa yon para makapagsimula na ako ng bago. Gusto ko na makausad at makalimutan na ang nangyari nung nakaraan at magfocus sa present tsaka para naman may mapantunayan ako sa sarili ko. I wanna earn dollars and more than what I am earning rn, kase kahit pa sabihin okay. Kulang na kulang. Also I wanna upgrade myself. Parang may gusto akong patunayan talaga. I don't wanna look like a bummer.

I guess this insicurities are killing and eating me right now. Talunan ako actually. Sa pagibig, sa buhay sa family. I wish makayanan ko pa. I may look happy but deep inside something is really off.

Ayun lang gusto ko lang ishare yung kung anong nangyayari sakin. I wish to remove myself in this situation and trust me. 2 yrs from now tatawanan ko nalang to tapos sasabihin ko "Imagine I was in the state of losing myself, but here I am, alive and well".

Hindi ko rin alam mga pinagsasabi ko pero gusto ko lang may mapaglabasan ng mga hinaing ko na kaunti.

Hugs yall✨☺️🫂

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