I feel so behind on my education );
I'm currently 19, in community college and I've come to the conclusion that I don't feel educated enough to get the work done as if i have to rely on things to help me out.
Growing up I hated school. I never saw the potential or use of it, my little brain couldn't grasp the fact that school will help you drastically in the future. As of now I'm a bit more conscious of myself and tend to reflect on my past a lot, which is why I'm bringing this up. I'm at the point where I feel like I really need to implement my education in my life, since I always pushed it to the side, and transitioning to college makes it so difficult for me, these workloads and the independent discipline you need. This all leaves me clueless and confused on where to start.
Mind you my school habits really suck and I do have ADHD, but Cmon freak that as an excuse ,I go to class and take notes but don't retain anything, I do what's due and never look back at it, I tend to rely on Ai to help me with school work, and I Hate it. I do the bare minimum and I've been doing that my whole life and I regret it. It makes my future look so unrealistic considering I grew up never putting in effort or time to fully understand things and just take it for granted.
I genuinely think most middle schoolers are smarter than me education wise.
Now to my main point, which is why I'm posting this, What steps should I take into improve my education in college? I did graduate Highschool with a 3.0 but I literally did bare minimum. I wanna become an educated man who can get their point across and be articulate and also improve my cognitive skills (i'm the type of person to ask for your name then instantly forget), Furthermore become more disciplined, have some sorta routine and implement school into my daily life. Lastly, Math, I'm not even joking when I say this. I cant do math for shit. My mental math sucks, they lost me when it came to algebra 1, also fraction gosh idk why I couldn't grasp those concepts. Please can some of yall educated fellows help me or those who relate to me and got out of this state, I could really use your guidance and input!!!.
Anyways thank you for your time and considering my post.!!!