u/Amazing_Hour280

I am working in casino in casino as dealer.

Yesterday player was insulting me and throwing bad words towards me. He was really bad. He was standing next to me at punch distance. At some point in my brain clicked so many possible variiations how to deal with it. I was thinking going ALL-IN at some point and ending his life. My blood pressure was so high, at brake my hands and whole body were shaking. But other side i was thinking about my life , my career and my future.

Losting this job costs me everything. I don't know how i have to feel right now.

After brake i was feeling , if i will see him again i would have very bad reaction, but he was blacklisted in 2 minutes.

I am feeling at point that i am weak person , at some point strong. Please Help Me !

I am working in casino in third country world as dealer.

Yesterday player was insulting me and throwing bad word towards me. He was really bad. He was standing next to me at punch distance. At some point in my brain clicked so many possible variiations how to deal with it. I was thinking going ALL-IN at some point and ending his life. My blood pressure was so high, at brake my hands and whole body were shaking. But other side i was thinking about my life , my career and my future.

Losting this job costs me everything. I don't know how i feel right now.

I am feeling at point that i am weak person , at some point strong. Please Help Me !