I had to forcefully let go him🥀
I used to get confused earlier that whether it’s friendship or I feel love. But yes I love him a lot. I had to let him go because we were not able to give each other what we wanted. My heart feels like someone has kept a mountain on it and body shakes on the realization that he is gone😭😭😭😭😭 I feel like I will die out of pain. Pain of letting him go. The whole day I cry I remember him his moments. He is the first love of my life and I had one of the beautiful time with him, the time which makes me laugh, smile, cry and die every moment. He says he loves me but the he wants me to be the person he likes. Restrictions and what not. He has told his mom about us and he claims that he can give that security. Is that enough? What about sleepless nights which I have spent even though I had him in my life. But whatever it is. I miss him a lot. Feels like my heart has just given up. I wish I could have lived only till the time we were together. Today is 6th April and the day we actually met and became friends two years ago and also the day we finally ended everything.
I will definitely go in depression or die if this continues.