Hello,
I’m a fellow Christian struggling with my mental health. I hate when you struggle or show signs that you’re struggling people assume that you either have done something wrong to God and that he must be punishing you. Or that satan is the one putting these feeling in your head. In MY relationship with God I know that he doesn’t expect me to be perfect. And since I’m human I’m allowed to feel the way I do. Also people just keep telling me to just stop thinking or feeling the way I do. Like if I had an off and on switch in my head to stop emotions from coming and going. Like: “wow thanks !! I completely forgot to suppress my emotions again and forgot how wonderful that went for me last time :D!!!”. I feel like people take struggling as a joke and don’t really understand what it’s like to deal with the emotions I feel and deal with on a daily basis. And if they did I wonder if they’ll be able to handle it as gracefully as I have. And yes even with the way I feel I know God still loves me and understands me better than anyone else could.