u/Altruistic_Spirit654

I don’t know how to say things or why I’ll post this, I know I’ll be embarrassing myself but no one here will know me so I’ll try it.
I want to take my life because I don’t feel as if I exist, I don’t remember things or feelings they just pass by me, It doesn’t feel like I’m watching my life from afar or anything but I don’t feel conscious at all, it’s like I really don’t exist like actually don’t, that’s why I feel like I need to take my life but sometimes I feel like I’m mocking people who really go through trauma and mine isn’t valid, I know nothing will help me