i feel like i’m too far gone for help
i’ve been self harming since i was 12, im now 16 and i feel like i’m too far gone for anything to work, and this is my last straw
my mum reached out to my schools safeguarding for me to get help so they’ve referred me to a mental support team, that come into the school and have a session with u every week.
i filled in the form and put down that i don’t want my parents to be filled in on the therapy. and those are my boundaries.
and my attendance is low, i rarely come in BECAUSE of my mental health so of course i end up missing a day where i was supposed to have a meeting with the mental support team, but i wasn’t aware because i wasn’t even told!!!!! they are meant to use my email and phone number to remind me but no- nothing.
so eventually safeguarding told me that they decided to discharge me because i haven’t been in for the sessions. which great cool amazing it would’ve been pointless anyway.
to add on top of it the safeguarding lady would comment on the fact that i chose not for updates to go to my parents SHES SO FUCKING PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE ABOUT IT, like god forbid i don’t want my fucking parents knowing about stuff - if i did i would’ve told them myself.
i don’t understand why the team didn’t email or text me?? like do they think i’m not compable of reading a fucking message? they just treat me like some child fuck that safeguarding lady hates me she’s making it seem like it’s all my fault - well i know it is because i haven’t been coming in, but the EMAIL IS CORRECT, WHY DIDNT THEY EMAIL ME ABOUT THE DAYS?? i would’ve come in if i had knew about it jesus christ.
i hate how she kept repeating the word discharged i just felt like a freak and she said some of this in front of my schoolmates
well it doesn’t even matter i hate therapy it never helps they just say the same shit over and over again nothing ever helps i just hate being derealised i hate feeling panicked all the time, there’s no point in it all anymore, why can’t i just been normal why is it me that became crazy i’m a freak