u/Altruistic_Bug_1384

i created this burner account due to it not wanting to be traced. ive had a porn addiction since i was in the 3rd grade (8 years old) ive been consistently masturbating ever since then. im creating this so i can get everything off my chest and so that i can have a void that i can scream into. i started from music videos and slowly worked my way up from there. i snuck my tablet into my room as a kid in 4th grade and viewed porn for the first time on it. after that i was hooked on pornography ever since that discovery, years went by of just me being in my room by myself isolated playing video games and masturbating for almost every summer of my youth. once i graduated i started a relationship with someone ive been with since, she knows of my pornography addiction and shes tried her best to support me and help me find my way out and i will be forever grateful to her for this. i can no longer satisfy her the way she wants, we've talked about it and we believe its due to the addiction and my ADHD and adderall prescription. i just want someone to say there is still hope for me, that my brain can be rewired and i dont feel like a complete dissappointment to not only her but to myself. ive downloaded content blockers onto my laptop and phone but when i get into the state of mind where i masturbate i seem to become a much more determined person and i want to know how i can possibly control it and become the man that she deserves.