I got cheated on with a boy and my heart is definitely breaking . I need to read something but I don't know what to read , I feel sad and numb , I just want to get lost in a book or to relate to it .
If someone has a recommendation please
How could you do that????
How could you lie to my face about?
How could you telll to not worry about it and that you didn't feel anything and that you loved me?
How could you breakup with me because you didnt see a future with me instead of telling me the truth?
How could you blame for not supporting you when this happened to you , while you were emotionally cheating on me?
How could you lie to my faceeeeee?? How could you fucking lie to my face???
You got with him right? You lied that you weren't feeling anything for him for 5 fucking month .
How can you look at his face without guilt eating you alive????
How can you be with without being disgusted by yourself?
How can you even talk about him when you trash talked about him with me???
How can you kiss him without me coming to your mind?
How could you after less than 2 months of you staying you stilll love me and less than 2 months of no contact?
How could you destroy me?
I tried till the end to not tell my friend anything , to not destroy your image while you lied to me to my face and in the end you got with him.
Well congrats , congrats , i hope guilt eats you alive and that you can't eat , or you wake up with nightmares or that you can't sleep , like it's happening to me .
I fucking hope guilt eats you alive untill you cant leave the bed , like I am.
I hope you fucking root because that's what you deserve.
You lost someone that literally gave the world and that's on you for all your life.
I will get better , I promise I will get better and i hope you fucking root.
Why does it feel like she can move on and act like everything is fine, while I’m still struggling so much even though I didn’t do anything wrong ?
I saw something on her account after two months of no contact, and it really threw me off.
From what I understood, she was talking about a guy she used to be friends with and had feelings for for a long time. It sounded like there was something there emotionally, maybe even while we were still together or around that time. I think it's the same guy that showed her that she didn’t want a life with me , and that she wanted a man instead of a woman , she told me about him back then but she told me that it's done , when we talked the last time she told me she kept feeling stuff in her stomach so today what I saw shocked me , I dont know if anyrhing was ever real at this point.
Seeing that hit me harder than I expected. I feel confused, hurt, and honestly just really drained. It makes me question a lot of things about our relationship and how I saw it at the time.
At the same time, I don’t even feel fully clear about what I feel anymore. It’s just a mix of sadness, frustration, and exhaustion. I tried so hard to stay respectful and see her in a good light even until the end, and now everything feels messy in my head.
It feels so heavy to be clueless in your own relationship and i was.
She deleted my number after one month of me doing it , I dont even know if she deleted it or blocked me but it feels weird, really weird , i dont know how I feel , I miss her , it's weird , the chat used to be so warm , now there's no profile , no common group ( we deleted them) and just 3000+ pictures , just the pictures can say that one day we were something , her number seems like before I met her , I miss her but it's gonna get better , it only get better from here right?