Am I spoiled if I feel a little sad for not getting flowers on the half year mark?
Okay so my bf and I just hit half a year since we got together and for the first month he got me a flower (its wasnt anything fancy just a single rose but still it meant a lot to me), the second month anniversary we happened during our finals week (we are both on college) after a big exam for the both of us and we needed sleep after it so we didnt go out and for the third because Valentines was super close he chose to get me a bouquet on Valentines.
But after Valentines things became kinda a slippery slope. We did not go out on our anniversary like we used to two times (one time he got sick a week before and he still had a cough so I insisted cause we live really far away and he would have to walk 40 minutes to pick me up or 20 to meat up at the city center(we live on a mountainous city so he would have to walk when returning at a chilly night a 70 meter elevation just to get to his home which I feared might worsen his symptoms) and the second it feel on Easter holidays so again we didnt go out. That WHOLE day I was working (family bussiness) and he forgot and he never sent me a text and for the ones saying I could have messaged him first I promise you that day I got 4 hours of sleep). So basically on the actual anniversary date went out a complete 2 out of 5 times. Mind you here I told him all I want to be happy is for us to go out once a week and one time on our anniversary each month.
So this time he didn't pick me up (which he almost always does) nor give me flowers. I kinda understand where this was coming from since last time we met we argued (or more like I complained) about how lately things have been kinda off and about what I stated above since he asked me out for the half year anniversary date inside a class we share WHILE THE PROFESSOR WAS ACTIVELY GIVING A LECTURE. Okay we both might not have been really paying attention because the prof was revising but still I feel like he could AT LEAST wait AFTER class. So that threw me off due to the fact that after he proposed we go out on an anniversary date 3 months after the previous one in that way and I just blurred out that if it can't happen we shouldn't force it. We also argued about some other stuff because I still had some unpacked emotions about the time we didn't go out for 1,5 month out of the 5 we have been together.
So after all that I understand that he was not on his best mood to buy me flowers. But while on the date I brought up what we talked about last time because we both still had things to say and at some point he told me he asked his girl best friend about the fact I complained on the fact that he proposed we go out for something I consider important on such a casual manner and he said that they reached the conclusion that this is a dumb complain (he usually asks her for relationship advice, and he has in the past slipped about to her about traumatic experiences I confided to him) which made me feel like he was it in manner that meant I was overreacting or way too stupid and above the clouds.
Maybe I am though, I don't know it's my first relationship so please let me know if I am kinda overreacting. This trail of thoughts was sparked up due to the fact I just woke up from a dream where, me, my bf, his gbf and some other of his friends went on a hike. I was holding a bag and he wasn't holding anything and at some point his gbf said she was tired and he carried her on his back while I was also tired and holding something kinda heavy but I didn't complain. He didn't offer to hold my bag for me and when he took her on his back none of the people of his friend group said anything. It's not like I have met his friends outside of Uni to know if their reaction would be like that and irl I don't think he would do that but maybe jealousy sparked up due to that comment I stated above but idk anymore. Please enlighten me.