I forgot to vote and feel the strongest urge to sh
I stopped self harming a year and a half ago. But yesterday during the local elections, I forgot to vote. And I wasn't even busy at the time, I just completely forgot and didn't have social media which would usually remind me to. I feel like the worst person in the world, I feel responsible for if the country goes downhill. I convinced myself that everyone in my very politically aware student house hates me because I've just ruined their lives. They don't know I forgot, but I was in the house while they were out voting and somehow I didn't put two and two together. I feel so stupid. I feel like I need to be punished for this and hold myself up to more serious consequences when I do things like this. I feel so extremely guilty and like I can't face anyone because they'll just be able to tell I didn't vote. The only solution for me right now seems like self harm, I feel like I need to punish myself so that I never do this again.