Got written up for being late to work all week and that was all due to watching porn, What’s wrong with me.
I was late to work all week due to me wanting to watch porn while I should be getting ready for work, and just today I was almost nearly late once again for doing the same thing that almost called me everything. It’s like I don’t care I just keep doing this thing that hurts me both mentally and sometimes physically and now it’s interfering with my income/career and I just keep doing it like nothings wrong. I feel so stupid man I just don’t know anymore I’ve been trying to quit for 6 long years now and it’s draining and exhausting I feel like I’ll never get over this addiction it just always finds a way to ruin everything, it’s to a point where almost nothing is off limits for me and the guilt eats me up inside every single day because I wasn’t once like this. I recently started talking to a girl and she doesn’t know she’s secretly helping me get over this addiction and just don’t see a need for this anymore yet I can’t escape it. I’m tired of being a weak man