u/AlternativeRub6237

I never thought I’d be writing this. I’m a very guarded person. After my last serious relationship, I closed my doors. I don’t date in my own city, let alone talk to strangers online. But then I met him over solo trip india subreddit.

We talked for only seven days. It started with something random travel iternary and into the conversation, we exchanged nos, and that random conversations turned into 5-hour calls. I’ve never felt an instant connect like this. He is one of the gentlest, most hardworking people I’ve ever seen. even though we were nearly 1000km apart.

I’m struggling because I had this insane gut feeling. I dont know if it sounds weird or delusional, but to me for the first time it felt like we were already married in the future, and we were just given a chance to come back to the present to fall for each other all over again. And im' damn sure It wasn't a crush cos, i haven't even seen him. Its by choice, that we thought to see each other after knowing a little more about eachother. And this gut feeling, i haven't even got it from my past relationship, i’ve never felt that level of certainty about anyone. i swear and No , this is not something, which is a result to cope up from my past, i had around 7..8 months of time and never looked for something to forget that past relationship or to move on.

Today, we ended it.

He admitted he felt the exact same "future" connection, he admitted that he likes me, but he’s choosing his brain over his gut. He’s dealing with past trauma and he’s terrified of long distance. He said if we keep talking, he’ll fall for me, and he can’t handle the "risk" of needing me in person when I’m so far away. Mind it he is a very soft person but the only and the most drawback he had is this that he overthinks a lot!!!. He’s using a defense mechanism to save us both from potential pain later, which i think we would be able to handle but still , i can't force somebody to act in a certain way or to take a decision with pressure.

I respect his choice, but it hurts. I don't know how to go back to being "normal" after this.

I’m just venting because it feels so surreal to lose a future you were so sure of in just one week.