u/AlternativePain4327

How do I fix this?

I genuinely think that after my ex left me I'll never love anyone the same way or with that intensity. Towards the end of us it was pretty toxic but I was willing to put up with it cause i adored him and idk how abusive he had to become before I would have left (he left before I found out) I figured out the pattern of his toxic behavior and was willing to deal with it just to not be alone. Somewhere along thay road I believe I became toxic too and now I don't see myself in a new relationship. Plus he was my first relationship so he experienced my firsts with me and now idk if anyone else is ever gonna match that