u/Alternative-Meat-419

For the first time ever, im listening to the audiobook. Ive been putting it off because I knew how inferior my book would be compared to the author. I only started because me and sato are two peas in a pot. If you replaced me into the start of the story instead of sato, you could tell no difference. Idk why im making this post… maybe because i have no one else to tell besides inanimate objects.

me and satou share tons of similarities. I always dreamt about finding someone like me, but everyone larps and it’s obvious. they’ll complain about how miserable and lonely they are then two hours later go to the mall with their friends around a thousand people. they don’t know what it’s like to be socially anxious to the point where it’s debilitating. they don’t know what it’s like to not like being outside in public spaces alone with no safety anchor. they don’t know what it’s like to stop going to school all because of how bad your social anxiety has gotten. i can’t pick up a job because of it. i’ve shaped my entire personality by avoidance. I never leave to a store unless it’s right when they open or ten minutes before they close. people who larp being this way are literal weirdos who are worse off than i am if they think it’s cool being this way. i hope some day i get better, and if not, then maybe some day ill really meet someone that’s like me, though it seems pretty far out of reach.