What should I do random Reddit people?
Honestly I don't really know what I wanna ask for, I just want advice? A wake up call? An encouragement? Idk just random people who won't make me feel like I'm insanely stupid or an asshole
Okay so me and my girlfriend have been complicated lately and whenever I try communicating she takes it well..... Not good. Soo in one of the movies I watched there was this scene where a couple would write in a piece of paper some reasons to stay and reasons to leave. I decided to do it and now I don't really know cause my reasons to leave outweighed my reasons to stay but my reasons to stay makes it look like I won't find someone like that again. So uhm here's my list that I made
I courted her for more than a year even though I'm a girl too because she doesn't want a label yet doesn't want a no label relationship
She never introduced me to her friends and family while I am always proud to talk about her
I stayed despite the uncertainty of our relationship and her broken promises
most of the time I'm the only one who gives effort in our relationship, even if I have to say no to some of my responsibilities just to fit her schedule
I always have free time for her any time and any day but I have to be understandable when she doesn't
I do whatever she wants, cause I know to myself that I can't and won't break the little trust she can barely give me
whenever I'm mad at her, she just cries and I automatically forgive her. And sometimes I know she uses that fact, but I never confronted her
she slapped me hard enough to break one of my glasses but I forgave her even though it was a deal breaker for me cause she didn't do it again
she emotionally cheated but I forgave her cause she chose me
I love her more than I love myself
she staged a mini prom at her house just so we could have a prom where we're each other's date
she's the first person to ever surprise me on my birthday, exerting effort last minute kahit may exam sya, just because she found out I hid the fact that I was alone on my birthday
she listened and understood every trauma, fear, insecurity, and bad experiences I had, then she helped me get past most of it
she handmaids gifts for me even without occasions just because, and she's the "defends me in public, corrects me in private" type
she knows me, she knows my habits, she knows my words, she memorized every little detail even I don't notice
she knows all my likes and dislikes, she knows exactly what to do when I'm sad, angry, or just numb
she's the only person I'm comfortable to be around, like I'm only really me when I'm with her
she's consistent. she's consistent with assurance, with making me feel special, and she's consistent with her actions