u/Alternative-Day-9486

I have been trying to get sober on and off for 6-7 years now and 2 years ago I did for quite some time. I have struggled with kratom off and on during this time and 2 months ago I picked back up 7-oh and then also ran into some cocaine and off to the races I went. I spiraled down a rabbit hole that I did not know existed. Crazy amounts of money spent, the chasing the dragon everyday and simply doing things to feed these habits I didn’t think I would. Now we are here a couple people have found out and I have not given them the full truth even though they are still helping me pick up the pieces. I haven’t completely stopped using yet and I feel terrible about that lying to the ones helping me but I am not sure how to even start to let out everything that I ran into over the last two months. I am really struggling with what to do and where to start to pick up the pieces again but also not hurt anyone in the process because there is enough going on in our families life and this time some real consequences might finally slap me in the face. Who knows maybe it’s what is needed but I’m just a little worried. I figure I may as well start by telling a bunch of strangers and may get the courage to tell people in my life.