Let me explain !! Yes having special interests is very satisfying when investigating it, participating or investing in it BUT don't you ever feel enslaved by the need for such stimulation ?? What I mean is that it rarely brought me closer to people, some folks will share one interest with you but not the other; you're either left alone or searching for someone to share them with. You may have many interests and it feels like curiosity is never ending, which I always thought was a good thing and it led me to learn so much and be open minded but also led me nowhere so many times, asking myself "why the hell am I doing this, what is the point ??" like some knowledge doesn't seem very "useful", I don't achieve anything with those except personal satisfaction and it bothers me. I am obsessed with autonomy so that might be the problem, I someday want to be able to live by my own means (energy wise, agriculturaly wise, etc.) so I tried shifting some interests to match that ambition, for instance knowing all the regional fish for when I go fishing instead of all the beetles lol. I'd love to know your thoughts on that. Good day to you all.
u/AlteredBeetle
Hello everyone,
I wonder if some of you have catatonia, whether it's mild or severe, and how you deal with it ? It's one of the main symptoms I have and it's the most difficult to deal with. I try to manage my life so that I don't get bad episodes and I'm pretty good at it now, but nothing is ever perfect and I can't control everything so it always comes back real hard at some point cause I tried to push it away. I've been in a catatonic state on and off for 2 weeks now and it's been 3 really difficult days. Usually I need someone by my side slowly talking to me, grabing me back into the real world but that can take days and I don't have anyone who can do that right now, my parents live far away and my friends here don't know about my condition. I currently am stuck on my couch but I've taken meds so it's a bit milder, I've taken the opportunity to write this down.
I wonder if you have any "tricks" to get out of it ? Sometimes humming can help for me, but these days I can't even get to humming most of the time.
Also I have contacted my psychiatrist and I can't see him for a couple of weeks so I'd like you to share your tips and tricks WITHOUT the use of medications thank you. I take some benzodiazepine and it helps a bit but 1. you have to be able to move to take them and 2. it makes me unable to drive which I would prefer to be able to.
Thank you, have a nice day