Going back and forth
Hi everybody,
So I have been on here and I’m coming back because I am having a lot of trouble stopping hrt. I like the way I feel off of it but I am deathly afraid of detransitioning back into a man - because it seems a bit traumatic for me to go back. I feel a constant swing and I suffer from gender ocd where I feel like I am fine identifying as a femboy, but then constantly yearn to look like a woman and be treated as such. This constant mental back and forth is leaving me exasperated and I don’t even want to step outside and be witnessed as a man - or inbetween but I also feel like estrogen doesn’t completely work for my brain. Everybody in my life loves me and I have a ton of trans friends who support me in this arc but I want to make mental peace because I often feel like it’s because I seek the attraction of straighter men and I want to get over this. How can I over come these feelings and fully accept myself.