Let down by my medical providers.
Hello,
I've always trusted my doctors since they've helped a lot, but recently I've felt terribly let down and upset at how I've ben treated.
It started in December last year, when I told my therapist that I feel suicidal most of the time, and he said that being suicidal was my "bad habit" and I need to work on "breaking it".
Then I ended up in the hospital and was prescribed lithium (which works sometimes) and when I said that it gave me a tremor and showed her by holding a cup of water while trembling, and all she said was that "there are costs and benefits to every medication.
Then once I got out of the hospital and met with my psychiatrist and told her about my persistent suicidal thoughts and how I planned to do it all she could say was "that sounds painful."
Then I met with my therapist earlier this week and he defended her after I said that I felt like none of my care team gave a shit about me.
I'm just so tired. I take so many meds and am doing everything I'm supposed to be doing and I'm still feeling bad mentally most days. I just don't know what to do. I don't have any way to change my providers either.