Anxious about the future
My employment was recently terminated by the company I've been working for, for 22 years. (redundancy ) I've been asked to render 30 days, as part of our company's policy, as well as train my replacement. The severance pay was quite good, and I have no complaints.
But being an unemployed 47 year old, does stir up quite a huge level of anxiety in me. I've never job hunted in decades, am I still marketable?
On my last day, I asked to work remotely. During one of the meetings, I took my favourite deck and started shuffling. Thinking about what my future job will be, will I have one? when will have a job? etc.
King of Pentacles was my jumper....but instead of putting him back in the deck, I thought - was this my time frame? or something else?
I continued to shuffle and proceeded to cut the cards and started pulling. Just pulling cards, no spread in mind.
I got the Emperor, then Judgement, then Justice.
So, I think this termination was something I had coming. Years of stagnation, I think upper management noticed that I don't have the "fire" in me anymore... Now that I'm out, I should reflect and face this new situation and make the hard decisions. To do that I have to be the Emperor, a disciplined, rational, mature man. Create stability, and safe space, so I could eventually be that King of Pentacles?
Did I make sense? What message are you guys getting from na cards?