u/Alicia_tokyo

When I first found out I was pregnant I was really happy, my best friend was pregnant at the same time as me so made me even happier, my boyfriend was exited but he doesn’t show it much but he is. I bought some gender neutral baby clothes and was really happy, as the weeks go by I’m now 12 weeks and I’m starting to feel a sense of regret, my boyfriend isn’t much help and he just sits on his game every single day and doesn’t show much emotion towards it, when he goes to work he comes back and doesn’t want to do anything which Is understandable I guess but because I don’t work and stay at home I’m expected to do a lot of things like cook, clean, change the litter trays, wash his clothes my clothes, change the bed sheets and even my dad who we live with at the moment expects me to keep the flat clean every day Aswell. More into this pregnancy I’ve felt so depressed and tired I just want to sleep through the days I don’t even want to stay awake, I look awful as I have no effort and I feel awful, I don’t want to clean but I hate living in a mess and my boyfriend is fine with mess as he doesn’t really notice it so he doesn’t do much about it either, I’m now 12 weeks and don’t know what I’m doing all I sense is regret and nostalgia from my past life when it was just me and my friends, I get exited when a scan comes up and I’m exited to know the gender sometimes but most the time I’m sat here feeling depressed and keep thinking am I even going to love my baby? I feel like I’ve put my self in a shir situation and I’m the depts of hell.