Is it ever gonna stop?
I’ve had a BED for years, then developed anorexia for a few months, and for the past 5 months I’ve been struggling with binging and purging almost every day, even multiple times per day. It has gotten so bad I’ve come to a point where I literally cannot stop thinking about food, it’s like it’s taking over my life. I can’t hang out with my friends without obsessing about food, I can’t study, I can’t get out of my house except if I’m going to the gym. I’ve been throwing up so often I can’t do it anymore so now it feels like I’m stuck with eating for a whole family of 5 with no way of getting rid of the food. I just want tips on how to stop cause all these months I felt kind of safe cause even though I was binging I was throwing everything up but now that I can’t it’s different. I’m in therapy but it’s not really helping at all, I just want to live a normal life without thinking about food 24/7 or needing a huge amount of food just to feel happy for a few minutes and then go back to feeling even more miserable than before. I’m so tired of this, I just want to live