The last 3 years have been hell. I am 42 and I feel like I’m already dying. I have low hormones including testosterone. I am getting cyclic migraines and lots of bleeding. I have been to 4 different doctors and none give a shit. I have lost 3 kilos of muscle mass over the year and have fat i cant move ob my stomach despite not drinking, eating carbs, soda or junk food and calorie counting. I’ve worked with dietitians and several Pts none who could help me anf were stumped. One put me on 200 grams of protien though im only 5’ 3. Doctor told me to lose weight for my blood pressure but -20 kilos later still had high blood pressure. My hair is falling out in clumps. I get hot flashes and night sweats. Im so sick of 3 years of trying to feel better. Im giving up coffee now to see if that helps (more than one gives me hot flushes). I have started HRT but after a month im still tired and bleeding heavy. Im now so tired i can’t even make it to the gym. And im working 40 hours a week teaching PE in disability doing over 10,000 steps a day. I reached out to r/fitness forum and they said “ wow thats alot of work to look so mid” and “you look like you have the body of a lazy 62 year old”. Im wasting away. I just want to end it all. My muscles ach. Im under so much pressure to work and to turn up for my children and husband. I feel trapped in this cycle amd i cant get out. I think about killing my self every day. I feel so horrible. Honestly no one would care if I was gone. I moved interstate and have no friends and my partner and children only need each other im just the person who makes dinner. *dont ask me about my iron, I have heamochromotosis and my iron is always 👌
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The last 3 years have been hell. I am 42 and I feel like I’m already dying. I have low hormones including testosterone. I am getting cyclic migraines and lots of bleeding. I have been to 4 different doctors and none give a shit. I have lost 3 kilos of muscle mass over the year and have fat i cant move ob my stomach despite not drinking, eating carbs, soda or junk food and calorie counting. I’ve worked with dietitians and several Pts none who could help me anf were stumped. One put me on 200 grams of protien though im only 5’ 3. Doctor told me to lose weight for my blood pressure but -20 kilos later still had high blood pressure. My hair is falling out in clumps. I get hot flashes and night sweats. Im so sick of 3 years of trying to feel better. Im giving up coffee now to see if that helps. I have started HRT but after a month im still tired and bleeding heavy. Im now so tired i can’t even make it to the gym. And im working 40 hours a week teaching PE in disability doing over 10,000 steps a day. I reached out to fitness forum and they said wow thats alot of work to look so mid amd you look like a lazy 62 year old. Im wasting away. I just want to end it all. My muscles ach. Im under so much pressure to work and to turn up for my children and husband. I feel trapped in this cycle amd i cant get out. I think about killing my self every day. I feel so horrible. Honestly no one would care if I was gone. I moved interstate and have no friends and my partner and children only need each other im just the person who makes dinner. *dont ask me about my iron, I have heamochromotosis and my iron is always 👌