u/Alarming_Topic9409

Why does it feel so hard to share something without feeling like I want all the attention in the world? I've redrafted a long paragraph story just to delete and redo four times to post here, and thinking that maybe I'm just better off if I eat whatever is eating me from the inside alone, because I feel like I'm competing for whoever has the most tragic loneliness backstory, because it feels humiliating, as in... What am I even expecting? Hollow comments that I'm not alone or that I'm too young to know? That I won't find the answer or comfort and I will only find more reasons to keep things to myself?

But at the end of it, it is something that I have to figure out on my own, I really, really hate that feeling.