u/AlarmedPermit7644

So, I scored 113 on the RAADS-R test, with higher scores in Social relatedness (59) and Motor (34), although language was extremely low (6). I also did the Autism Spectrum Test by IDRlabs and it also shows that I show neurodivergent traits. I know that Online tests are not the best way to go about understanding neurodivergence but I have always felt like I am not neurotypical.

I have had mental health issues in the past and still struggle with eye contact, being violently angry, posture, and making connections. I am an introvert in the sense that I get drained because of social interactions. Previously, guidance counsellors and a psychiatrist have commented on, not diagnosed me with, my shivering issues in front of a large crowd and again, the eye contact thing. I am also prone to playing with my hair, fidgeting, hyperfixations, chewing on my clothes all the time and moving around in my seat in general and making weird noises. People have commented that I speak in a monotone and robotic manner too.

I am from a more conservative country and a place which does not really understand the full spectrum of neurodivergence, like mild autism or ADHD so I do not want to risk causing 'drama'. However, they can be understanding at times so I wanted to know from people who have actually went through these things on whether I should consider it. Of course, only I can truly know whether a consultation feels right but I'd like your opinion please!