Can't stop wanting a deep dicking
Seriously. I get bi- cycles and shit, but I've been literally dreaming about being squished and pounded by a masc af partner almost nightly for 2 months. I'm in a relationship with a partner that's just not really into that and I'm going fucking insane. We've been together for 20+ yrs so obv we click and have a beautiful life, but I just can't shake this longing. I don't want to cheat and no amount of solo play is satisfying and I keep fantasizing about things to do out of town at conferences that I'm going to. It's exhausting wanting something that feels so natural, but I can't have without hurting the person I love the most
edit: since this is getting more attention that I expected, I'll clarify a few things. We do talk candidly about sex and desire. We have tried xsomes, pegging, and have been open on and off over the years. The underlying issue is my partner is going through a rough depression episode and their anhedonia is really hurting our sex lives. We're both well aware this isn't sustainable, but if I were to talk about this now with them, it would be like a guilt trip. I'm honestly more focused on getting us dry and getting them into therapy than getting dicked down. I came here to vent frustration and I guess I choose to be a bit cunty about it