Why am I having such difficulties keeping a therapist?
Unsure if the tag is the best one for this, but im trying here.
I've been on a rough mental health journey for a while now. A few years ago, I tried to start therapy when I was at my absolute lowest. After a month of even trying to get an appointment set up, I finally get a therapist, only for them to start the session with "I will not be working here anymore. I will not be your therapist going forward, do you want to cancel?" And I said yeah, because it didn't make sense to pay for a session that wouldn't be helpful. I get an appointment for the next month and try again, and the same situation happens. Another month and I get a third appointment, this one says she'll be around, and we have our first session. At the end of it, she says "You're complicated." And the that she'll contact me with my next appointment date because the office for the practice that connected us was closed. I then was never given another appointment date, so I have to assume they just didn't bother making one.
After years of dealing with that, I finally convinced myself to make another appointment at a different practice, and when I finally get an appointment, they call me an hour before and cancel it, rescheduling it for next week, where Im sure this will just happen again and again ad infinitum. This therapist hasn't even SPOKEN to me yet and has already given up. What on earth could I be doing so wrong?